The other night I had a dream I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. Fear shot through me as though I was 17 years old. I woke in the early morning to the sweet it-was-only-a-dream realization that often accompanies nightmares. Then as I lay there I had a heart-stopping moment of the truly awake. It wasn’t just a dream. We are having another baby. I sat up, heart pounding, terrified.